Running Blahs!!

Yesterday, was another running day for me. I was hoping it would be better going. Sad to say, not even close. I started out strong again. I decided to start at a lower speed, so that it wouldn't be so discouraging. Sad to say, it just kept getting harder. I think the problem may be in the fact that I am trying to push it too hard, and also this keeps getting in the way.

Yep, my brain!!!! I just start thinking such negative thoughts. It goes somthing like this: "Man, I am having such a hard time breathing, I just can't finish this mile!!" or "I knew I wasn't a runner, why am I even doing this? I will never be able to run a 5k or any kind of race. Why don't you just go back to walking?" See what I mean? It's just awful. But, I will tell you this, I am determined to get over this negativity. I WANT to be a runner. I want this more than anything, I want to have medals, and wear cute running skirts. I want to become faster, and be able to run without feeling like I panting for every breath. And I know that the only way to achieve this is by giving it time.

I did pick a hard age to start running. But, I did say hard not impossible!!! I am just going to try to keep focused on my goals. And just keep working at it until it does get easier. So this is focused me signing off. Hopefully, Monday I will have a much better report to give.